Lei Shi found me through friendster. I miss that girl. In fact I miss all my primary school friends like Tze Long, Wei Tai, Zhang Mei and gang. Had a fun time msg-ing Lei Shi. Hopefully, there will be a class gathering one of this days. We never had one.

School was boring. Slept through math and geography. Rushed to Kino straight after school. No Tsubasa. *cry* The kino voucher expires tomorrow!

Late for a math tuition. Made Wan and Car waited because math ended late. Went crazy during physics tuition. "Anyone wants to come to amkss school carnival?" Haha...

Major blackout! Fortunately, no blackout here! Wahaha... Fish, Neko, Zhen Yan and Vanessa all affected. I don't know about the rests. Feels kindda weird not seeing Neko online. =S Funny how people started msg-ing me when there's the blackout. Mich was complaining about the room being too hot... Haha...

Number of days to carnival: 11
Number of tickets sold: 0 *pathetic*

Geez... the holiday is over. I haven't really enjoy myself yet. There's a sales out there and I haven't shop. I haven't touch much of the holiday assignments either. Shit... Zaiton's going to kill me tomorrow. I forgot all about the "changing" thing. :s Lao Da's going to skin me alive too.

Fish went wild wild wet! Oh my god! I'm jealous. I wanna go swimming too! Lalala... Went jogging today. Horrible. Don't wanna elaborate.

Two wedding dinners to attend in next two weeks. *food!* I think more cousins are getting married end of this year. :s

I'm back from sisters island. I miss my com sooo much. Haha.

Set off at 4pm yesterday at Clifford Pier. Took a buoy to small sister island. The island is really small and 'ulu'. We were the only ones there. There's no source of light, electricity or whatsoever. There are only a few benches, a jetty, a toilet and surprisingly quite a number of rubbish bins. :S

Went fishing. I caught none. Nicholas caught a small fish. Heck with the name... I don't know what fish it is but its edible. Dad's colleagues caught a few. It was pathetic. Wrong season... not many fishes. Our first catch was a pathetic small crab. We barbecued it. Had barbecued food last night. It was horrible. Imagine eating a burnt chicken with seasonings and honey. :s Haha... the worst thing is... we forgot to bring cups and mesh tins. Brought cup noodles but no hot water. To conclude... dinner was horrible.

Went for a night walk. Since the island is so small... our night walk was like from the jetty to the toilet only. But it was scary, the toilet is at the other end of the island. It was pitch dark on the way to the toilet. The toilet has no lights too... eerie.

The weather was fantastic. Really cooling. Slept at the jetty. Wonderful experience! That excludes the fear of meeting a potianak. Haha...

Woke up just in time to see the sunrise. It was breathtaking plus the wonderful temperature there, it's totally awesome. If only someone was there to watch it with me, it would have been perfect.

The adults woke up later. Too bad they missed the sunrise. They started fishing again early in the morning. They were hoping to catch big fishes last night. But when they saw marine fishes at the shallow waters in the morning, they went crazy! They were like "Hey... catch those marine fishes! Can bring home sia. Outside sell one for $$$" DotZ! Went to the beach while the adults were still going ding dong over those marine fishes. Got bitten by a hermit crab. :s

Left the island at 1pm, reluctantly. The island is really beautiful. A totally new camping experience. It was fun!

Departing for sisters island in a few hours time. Hopefully, it's going to be a fun and exciting day. I'm determined to get a more even tan. =)

School reopening soon. I'm going to heck all the holiday assignments. School sucks. Life sucks.

Went 'blogs spying'. Read Evelyn's lastest entry. Nice poem.

Love
Is a four-letter whisper
That lingers by your ear
Long after it has fluttered away,
Leaving you stranded, bound
Chest-high in a white cesspool of nothingness,
Your ears listening out for it again.

You feel warm and smile your smile,
But do not realize that's because
You are sinking into the depths of hell
(The other four-letter word)
You can't breathe,
But you want to hear more.

Credits: Evelyn and the person she tried to stalk. =S

Been really down since yesterday. For no reason. One moment I'm crazy, the other I'm down. To Zhen Yan: It has nothing to do with what you said. =)

Sigh. 8L 3W 1M

I hate myself. I have no substance, no ambition, no goal... nothing. I'm a heartless, cold and insensitive. My life is shit, crap... meaningless.

I made it! *smile*

There's a change in plan. Dad's bringing all of us to sisters island on Saturday. A camping cum fishing trip.

I'm not good at sci fic! I lost interest in writing that sci fic I've been working on for months. Sigh. But I started writing a new story, my story.

Feeling so much better. Went swimming. Surface diving improved. Latest record: the breadth of the competitor pool.

After Jian Sheng's lesson, Jack Lee (he used to be my swimming coach)invited all of us to his house. The kids got to sit in his convertible! *jealous* His house is nice. Trophies and medals can be seen practically at every corner of the living room. =S Uncle Jack said he got another box of trophies/ medals in his room. *OMG*

Believe it or not. He got at 5 electrical guitars and 2 organs. *wah* He even got a sound proof room including a totally awesome drum set. And a 48 inch plasma television.

His son represented Singapore in the 28th South East Asia Age Group Championship at Vietnam. We watched the video. (that's the reason why he invited us to his house) He got 2nd for butterfly! Indonesia got 1st. Cool... He's from RI! His mum said that before he even took the PSLE, RI and ACSI were 'fighting' for him. Haha...

Finally cut my hair. The fringe is kindda short. =S Hmm... I've decided to challenge the 5 km later in the evening since there's no tuition today. =)

Sick! Last week nothing came out. Today, stuff keeps coming out. Feel like vomiting but nothing comes out. Having slight fever. Feeling horrible. Hopefully, I can still go swimming tomorrow.

Went jogging again. Weak... Shoulders aching. Calf muscles starts to hurt again. I thought it healed long ago? =S Was struggling on my fifth round. I'm getting weaker. Sigh.

Met Van and Jac at Sembawang. Mum won't have let me out if she didn't need me to return her library books. DotZ. Did abit of geography at coffee bean. Hmmm... actually I was slacking most of the time. Wan came to join us slightly later. Slack, slack, slack until 4.

I'm trimming my hair tomorrow! Yeah!!! Finally. *smile* Going swimming tomorrow. *smile again*

Been really crappy these days. Hehe... Still looking for people to buy my carnival tickets.

A math tuition under Mr Ng's son. He's scary! Mr Lim had been rather crappy. He keeps on laughing. Too bad Joyce didn't go. She went for Linkin Park concert. *jealous* He said something about car, fishball and bird. Dotz...

Finally finish reading chapter 48 of the new trials. Took almost 4 hours to complete it. Either I'm reading it too slowly or is the chapter longer than the others? But it made the waiting worthwhile- I waited months for wish-chan to update. (fish waited even longer)

Kaitou is so cool. Haha... my prediction was right afterall. Mizuki Kai aka Kaitou turned out to be Tanaka Mikai. Ahh... Kaitou... I can't believe he actually survived having a bullet in his chest for so many months. *sob* Kaitou kissed Meilin! *super jealous*

okay... this is lame. I'm crazy over CCS! I love Syaoran, Touya, Kakashi and Kaitou! Haha... the list gets longer and longer.

Changed the layout. Too lazy to even try designing an original one. This layout is designed by the same person. Erm... Yiling I think. I like her layouts. Hard time deciding between this particular layout and another very cute layout. Go check it out. Black still suits me the best. I wanna be like Kaitou! *evil grin*

Oh yea... speaking of Kaitou. Wish-chan updated! Happy happy... bonkers.

PS: Fish is crazy! She admitted that she's a mutated human-fish. :s

Happy! Went cycling with fish, Zhen Yan, Hao Hao and Alvin. Rented bikes for 3 hours. Cycled for 2 hours plus. It was fun! Of course... going to Pasir Ris means spider web! I love the spider web. Me and Zhen Yan went up thrice. Lunch: 3 cans of iced lemon tea. :s

Hate the bus ride home. I seriously can't take long bus rides. Came home, put down my stuff and went out again. Went for a jog. Sigh... 'deproved'. Ran like only 4 times around the park. Abdomen pain, not stitches or gastric.

Hmm... happy times a zillion. I lost 2kg since the last time I stood on that weighing machine.

Feels bloated. =X Read Chee Lim's blog. He and his group of friends are crappy especially Thia. Haha...

*cry* Nobody wants to come to our school carnival. Tried all sorts of methods. Via email, friendster messages and SMS-es. Most ignored my SMS-es. Sek Kiang said he is broke. Vanessa and Jermyn said its too far. Eddie called up at the wrong time (stupid Jermyn), he said he may be coming but is not buying any tickets.

Only Leslie, Natalie and Angie replied my friendster messages. Leslie and Natalie said something like "May be coming." but they didn't mention about buying any tickets from me. Angie already bought the tickets from someone else.

Sad... I sold zero tickets. *cry* Shall ask those at tuition to come.

Cool quizzes. Got it from Neko's blog. Haha... fun doing the one on FMA. I got blew up by Scar so many times. :S

How to make a maple

Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 5 parts crazyiness 5 parts leadership

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add emotion to taste! Do not overindulge!

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Your Fullmetal Alchemist life! by Deathdesu
Your name?
Your age?
Were you an alchemist?	Yes! ^_^
Your rank was:	Colonel (Taisa)
You tended to:	Get harrassed by Mustang.
You made friends with:	Scar
You were almost killed by:	Wrath
And in the end:	You created the Philosopher's Stone! Go you!
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Happy! For no reasons. :s Haha... lalala...

Helped Zhen Yan with the class comics. Went to meet JoyZ, Jac and Wan at woodland. Didn't really study. Went window shopping. Then, tuition. Surprisingly, Leon and girlfriend were early today. But they were slow. Because of them, we can't go through stretching again.

Lalala... Natalie added me to friendster. From there, I found Charles. Haha... going bonkers. =)

Watched FMA. That dying scene was rather touching. The homunculus part still confuses me. Too bad Greed-san died. He's the best among all the other homunculus. Before he died, he told Edward the weakness of homunculus. Oh... how nice. I wanna be a homunculus too!

Met my dear cousin, Vanessa. Went for lunch. Then, window-shopping. Had a great time. Been a long time since I seen her. Naturally, we've got lots to talk about.

Bloody pissed. Went jogging, vented anger. If looks can kill, everyone at the park would have been dead. Why so frustrated? Well... to put it simply I hate being humiliated, insulted and worse still, being considered 'lower class'. In actual fact, its the whole of the amkss population being criticized. Some marists and a 'bitch' (so swelled up because she was from a top 10 school) who considered themselves 'upper class' have been criticizing amksians like we're worth less then a penny.

Oh... what can I add? I'm so honored to be called an ass and being referred to dogs. *roll eyes* I so agree with fish, "If you think us students from amkss are of a lower class, what about yourself? We're all humans. You should be categorized as 'lower than dirt' if you criticized another human like that." So what's the big deal being in a top school when your character sucks to the core. And what's the use of succeeding in academics and not in life. It makes no sense.

I must really say I admire 'me'. She's really good. *quick summarize* It doesn't matter whether you're holding a 'economy-class ticket' or the 'business-class ticket' in an airliner, we'll all end up at the same destination. If I could, I would have given those ***** a tight slap. Oh please... wake up. Its not like a neighborhood school student can't do better then someone from a top school. Take Adam Khoo for example. He used to be from one of the 'ulu-est' neighborhood schools and was considered a dropout. And guess what? He entered university and was on the dean list every year. Some of my facts may be wrong but its not impossible for a neighborhood school student to do a lot more better than anyone from a top school.

Seriously, I hate those who look down on us. "amkss is full of bengs and lians" FALLACY! I've have to admit that amkss do have quite a number of bengs and lians but its really too much to condemn all amksians because of those few. And don't tell me there's no such people in top schools? What a joke!

I guess I've to stop here if not this is going to be really vulgar. Too bad for them to agitate me at these time. Oh... being nice here... those ***** really gotta look out, don't fall down because they had their heads held too high up. I'm too tired to tag at that board anymore. It makes no point doing so if they are still so egoistic.

Hate marists. Love him. Ironic. Someone... anyone... Slap me!

Bloody pissed. Curse myself. Missing someone.

If I can't have you -a1

Another picture on the wall,
Another life I used to lead
Another me that was untrue
With every memory of you
Broken in my sleep
Another moment lost in time
You talked of love and I agreed
So many chances passed us by
Now I've lost the strength to try
Your love was never mine to keep

We can't hold on, we're losing track
So where's the road to take us back
And how did we forget what we believed

If I can't have you
And if the love has gone
And if you just can't find it in yourself to carry on
If you had to leave
Then take my life forever
'Cos I would never be with anybody else
If I can't have you

With every night I lie awake
With every day we grow apart
Is there a promise we can't break?
We never learn from our mistakes
From the very start

Don't look back on yesterday
'Cos the time has been and gone
Think of what tomorrow holds
Without you it feels so wrong
And I can't carry on

Chatted with cousin, Vanessa. Haha... 2 hours on the phone. Guess she's the only person whom I never run out of topic to talk about. Most probably having lunch together on Wednesday. *smile* Mum won't have let me go out if it isn't her. :s

Hmm... Han Long added me to friendster. Probably found me through Leslie's or 'his'. He don't know my english name. :s

Mum said she's giving "incentives" if I do well for the "O"s. But the computer is going to my brother if I don't do well.

Pissed with brother.

Exactly 2 months have passed. I'm probably being forgotten. Sigh.

Think I've been too mean. Its rather meaningless to argue over such matters. Our school really isn't that good afterall.

I'm drunk with confusion, sadness, frustration and boredom. I hate myself.

Met Adam Khoo *smile* and Chang Shui.

I hate ALL marists.

8 June, a very special day for all astronomy lovers. The transit of Venus. Its considered one of the rarest celestial event. To Neko: It's not nothing. Many famous astronomers had died wishing to see it. The transit have only been sighted 6 times since the invention of the telescope. Go view the transit at spaceweather.com. Interesting. If you've missed the transit... fret not. It will occur again on June 6, 2012. After that, it's rather impossible for us to view it again. It will happen only 120 years later.

Hmm... met Geok Geok (erm... I think that's how its spelled). Wonder if she still remembers me. :S Few minutes after that, saw Wei Tai walking pass. He didn't hear me calling me. Whatever. Miss all my primary school mates.

Bored, tired, sleepy. I'm an asshole!

Hell! Quarelled with my parents again. They are always threatening to sell away my beloved computer. Well... I don't give a shit about what they say. I'm sure they don't dare to do it.

Finally finish watching naruto. Spoilers to those who haven't watch it. The third hokage died! So sad... Maple respects the hokage. Maple wants to be a shinobi too. Hehe... And that horrible Itachi "injured" my dear Kakashi. *cry* Anyway Naruto defeated Hyuuga and most importantly GAARA! Oh my god. So unbelievable.

Sigh. Grandma in hospital. So poor thing, she had a bad fall. Visited her yesterday. Hope she doing okay after her operation today.

It's Neko's birthday! *smile smile* Let's all sing her a birthday song. *sing* "Happy Birthday to you..." Hehe...

Going crazy today. This afternoon, Maple was watching Naruto when she heard the phone ringing.
Nicholas: Hello... jie ar. Mum at home?
Maple: Eh...no. I KNEW IT!!! You can't take the 3 days right? Wahaha...
Nicholas: Erm...no. Hold on ar...
Mr Ngan: Good afternoon. Erm.. due to some unexpected circumstances, the camp is cancelled. We called to make sure... blah blah blah
Maple: oh.

So there goes my three days of peace and quiet. Camp cancelled because of 'some' food posioning cases. Hmm... WAH! HENG! Luckily I didn't go. Wahaha... I'm so mean. *smile*

Been watching Naruto the entire day. Nice! New love: Kakashi. Current loves: Kakashi, Syaoran, Touya. =) Kakashi is so cool. Hmm... almost cried today. Lee was beaten by Gaara. So sad. Really impress with Lee. Gaara... dangerous guy. Scary. Oh...and that perverted hermit is so funny too. Kakashi reads the book that the perverted hermit writes. *smile again*

Second entry. Bored lah. Just came home. Dad in good mood, brought us to turf city for seafood. Hmm... yummy. Hehe...

On the way home, saw a guy in "Jing Tong" jersey. "Jing Tong"... that's the name of Sembawang block 588 basketball team. Nice jersey... no wonder Melvin said he joined because of it. He's (not referring to Melvin) in that team too. So I assume the team probably had their training at the basketball court near my house today. Why don't I get to see him again? *sob*

Brother going for the camp tomorrow. I can't go. *cry* But then, I should be happy that he will be gone for 3 days. Finally, peace and quiet. *smile* The best thing is... I'll have the whole room to myself. Wahaha...

Vesek day. *smile* There was a Energy show this morning. This time, dad didn't off the TV. He did a "wonderful" thing. He started vacuuming the house when the show starts. Can't really hear their singing. Fortunately, I still managed to catch Ah Di's voice at the last few mintues. His voice so sexy. Hehe...

He read my email. Ask to meet last night. Again, I sneaked out. Melvin was there again. The three for us sat at the basketball court and stoned. We moved to the playground after a while cos they find the place kindda chilling. He explained about the Debra thing. Hmm... whatever.

Seems like I've got more stuff to talk about with Melvin compared to him. Reason being Melvin kept talking about anime (he can't believe that I watch Naruto), poly life and of course basketball. Haha... They were tired since they played basketball before meeting me. So we left earlier. He sent me home. In the lift, he asked "why do you look so unhappy?" Remembered he asked the same question when we meet to talk things out the other time. Like... how in the world do 'you' expect me to be happy? To think I actually like 'you' for so long and 'you' treated me like I'm a nobody. Do 'you' know that
I was hurted when 'you' said "actually I wanna meet because of that email..."

Watched Naruto in the morning. NICE! Dad bringing us for a feast later. Haha... Hmm... longest entry so far. Below is the first ending song from Naruto. Nice... read the lyrics.


Wind - By Akeboshi

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

Hmm... first of all. Wan... sorry. I forgot you wanted to watch Naruto as well. Sorry... must remember I got birdbrain. :S I'll try finish as fast as possible.

*Happy* He read it! He read my email which I sent exactly a month ago. Hehe... Okay... at least its not as bad as I expected. He actually still remembers me. Like...duh. Haha...

Boring day. Currently chatting with Vanessa. I mean my cousin. Long time never see her. Miss her lots. Haha...

Boring day. Was watching Naruto. Nicholas crazy about them too. Haha...