Didn't want to blog today. Was busy studying for chemistry and geography. But after reading someone's blog... someone I don't know, I had a sudden "urge" to blog. That someone was talking about friendship. Touching.
Friendship... sigh. After reading, I did some self reflection. Have I ever been a good friend? I doubt so. Been chatting with Chel online this two days... realised how "mo shen" we are now. She used to be one of my good friend and now we seldom talk. Anyway... Chel... if you're reading this... though I think he is ugly and Colin is much better... all the best with *cough cough*.
Friends are suppose to be people who are always there for you when you need them. Am I a good friend? No. I'm not always there when a friend is down or need my help. Sometimes I even give them cold shoulders. Sometimes I think I don't deserve the care and concerns my so-called friends give me. They treat me so well yet I don't seem to care. I complained that he didn't care about me... what about me? I think I treat a few of my friends like how he treated me.
I've been having the problem with friendship even since kindergarden. Basically, I think I screwed most of them. I've been an anti-socialist for most of my life. I don't talk to people unless they talk to me first. Surprisingly, such a boring person like me still have quite a number of friends. I'm grateful to know them. But sometimes I wonder... can friendship be everlasting? Seriously, I have doubts in that.
PS: Peeps... those are what I think... I'm not trying to screw up any friends now. So don't worry yea?
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