If the day did not start well, it will not end well. And it really didn't.

Just when I needed a shoulder to cry on, he isn’t there.

It’s not hard to tell if I’m working or slacking. If I’m giggling or grinning to no one in particular in the midst of work, that shows that, I’m slacking. Or fangirling to be precise. (>_<) If I’m all tensed up, frowning and such, that shows that, I’m really busy and please keep away.

Ever since I shifted to the temporary desk, my workload has greatly reduced and I’m enjoying the slack moments at work. =) After Kimura’s farewell dinner tonight, I guess I can start lazing around in the office. XD

Speaking of Kimura’s farewell dinner, everyone in the department is so excited about it. We have been preparing and talking about the special program for days and all of us are looking forward to it. I do hope the whole program turns out well, if not it will be days of effort gone to waste. =/

After some serious fangirling, I doubt I will be able to sleep tonight. >.< *high-ness!!!*

I have no idea what my body is signaling.

1) ‘Sore’ bones
2) Flu symptoms that comes and goes swiftly
3) Heatiness (发热)
4) Bloated stomach (that deflates over the night)
5) Weak digestive system
6) Drastic mood swing
7) Sudden dizziness
8) Fatigue
9) Horribly big and ugly pimple that popped out in the middle of the day

Workload reduced. =) I hope the renovation work completes earlier. My desk is super small now…….. *grumbles*

Last night I had a Resident-Evil-alike dream. This morning I woke up with 'sore' bones (like suan-ness within the bones).

Could that be an omen.... *gasps* or just the aftermath of watching Terminator Salvation. O_O

Anyway Terminator Salvation was better than I expected. =)

“人心难测，情比纸薄”。 这句话用来形容公司的人事关系非常恰当。

之前的我，很天真， 以为对同事好，他们也会一样对待我。 这种想法简直是大错特错。事实上，公司里是没有情谊的。 什麽友情，同事情都是虚假的。 当某人对自己没利用价值时，就把他扔掉。 大家都只为了自己的利益而奋斗。 为了得到某种利益，甚至能不折手段。

我。。。 就像那被扔在一边的人。 但我很幸运，有一位好友与我并肩作战。 不过，心里感到非常内疚，因为是我把她带进公司的。 要不是这样，她也不需要受这麽多的委屈。

人心为何那麽复杂？ 难道真心对人就这麽难吗？

Life has been hectic. Tiredness has reached its saturation point, till a point where I can’t even differentiate between physical and mental exhaustion.

Many times, I find myself falling asleep at the most unpredictable periods ever. For example, falling asleep in an important meeting with guest from other companies. What about falling asleep while playing computer games and fangirling?

Just yesterday, I slept through the MRT journey to work. Missed my stop at Raffles Place, ended up at Marina Bay and had to take the MRT back to Raffles Place. Best part is… I was standing throughout the entire journey, sleeping.

There is just too much for me to handle. Stress at work, stress outside work. My entire schedule and workflow is messed up. With Celine on leave, Kimura-san’s departure, the sudden change in organization structure, and many other miscellaneous stuff, my work load has increased doubly, if not even more. Not forgetting the major office renovation.

And there are still those personal affairs to vex on. Like the cancellation of my Japan trip, I still feel really guilty for flying momo’s kite. I had to cancel the trip because my parents were strongly against the idea of me flying to a H1N1 affected region. The most worrying issue is probably school. I’ve not told many about the application outcome. Yep, another 2 more rejections. Tell me if I should get accustom to such news. Anyway I have appealed for both, hoping for a positive outcome this time round. Shall only worry about whether to apply for full time/part time private university if the outcome isn’t good.

Overloaded and worn out. I seriously need a break.

Ending off with Tegoshi – he who never fails to brighten my day. =)

我觉得自己是个很容易被人遗忘的人。